An opportunity has been knocking on my door, “kpom kpom Kpom Kpom open the door to your heart make I enter”. I didn’t want it to enter; I was pushing it away. Okay, let me give you the gist. I am a really lazy person. I like to work doing only the things I like to do, e.g. filming, writing and acting for CAMERA. Recently, an audition opportunity for a contemporary South African version of Macbeth came up and I have been thinking about auditioning. I will have to act, sing and dance on STAGE. I AM NOT THE BIGGEST THEATER. Yesterday, I decided not to audition and focus on my script called High Skool (working title). I know being part of that play would be really good on my CV but my lazy butt just wouldn’t let me.
I beat myself up a lot about every little thing. When I try to lazy away, I just can’t follow through. Even though the alternative is long rehearsal nights for about two weeks straight and losing what is left of my social life, *which is nothing*. So, today the 14th of July 2016, I woke at five a.m. with thoughts going through my mind and head. I asked myself, “Are you really going to write anything? Aren’t you just being a lazy bum?” Then I got up and sang “I got bills, I gotta pay…” Okay, I didn’t sing it, I felt it. I am not that dramatic. So my questions to you are,
Gwam what are you going to do when faced with a similar situation?
Gwam, do you know the name of songs where I got the lyrics in italics used in this entry?
XOXO Steph To You Later